Yeah yeah. ..

I'm gonna have a hard time with this show. This...*says with malcontent* "Sugar". I am hating Priscilla and Tony right now. They are the reason I auditioned for Footloose. They are the reason I made so many friends in that show, and they are the reason I feel so bad right now! And yes I am so thankful for them too, for opening my eyes to a whole new world. I'm dumb, I should have auditioned. Cause now ALL of those friends are gonna be having so much fun and have NO time for me! YEAH I'm having a selfish moment ok? I don't have many of them so allow me this once. I'm just venting!

Don't get me wrong, I have a very good reason for not auditioning. (Heck if I were even to make it in) I shall just try to keep that in my mind when I get sad that none of my friends have time for me anymore. Well, reasons, plural. I really could not put them into words if I tried, and they are very personal but it pretty much has to do with doing what's best for my husband and I and our future family and life together. I mean, mine and Tony's <4> year anniversiary is in May! (Wooooo!!! I love my husband!! --Yes I'm hating and loving him in the same breath-- we are married what did you expect lol) So yeah, I may be in a show another time, when I have things sorted out, but it just really sucks that so many of my friends are in this one. :-( AND a good friend is moving away AND I miss my brother. /pouts.

Anyway, like I said, I just had to vent. I know I made the right decision. It's all good... (As long as my friends don't forget about me and toss me a few "I love you"'s my way every now and then) ;-) I will focus on the things I need to. I was completely happy staying home through ALL the shows Tony used to do before Footloose, so I can be that way again. Like tonight, I had fun with my boys. I have plenty of things to work on and keep me occupied! I'll just miss spending time with just about everyone in the cast. It should be SUCH a great show and I can't wait to see it!

On another note, I'm REALLY happy one of my best friends (yeah ok I'm talking about Stephie) is so happy. I'm happy when my friends are happy. How many times can I say happy? It's like Mikey and GOOD. But really, I've NEVER seen her like this in ALL the years that I have known her and ALL the things I have seen her through. (and trust me it's been alot) Even her really happy (teehee) times have been NOTHING like this. It's different this time. It's amazing to see. Truly!

*shakes fist angrily at Tony & Priscilla*

I leave you with: SPARTA CHICKEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *evil laugh*
















WE! ARE! SPARTA! ...CHICKENS!