Double Edged Sword

It really sucks because I come here to blog but then I feel like half the things I want to say I've already said it all with Photoblog! (btw, I'm SO happy two more of my friends got a photoblog. The disease is spreading!)


I haven't done much today, and it's been great. Tomorrow I will be babysitting again.

A headache is coming on.

I feel like I've gotten nothing accomplished today, but I know I get so much accomplished when I babysit that I can afford this one day. I even slept all the way till' 10:00! Barely. That is so late for me now. Weird. I've played some Sims, watched a lot of Bones Season 2 (dang I love that show). Had Sonic for the first time in a loooooooooooooooonng time. (and MAN was it good)

Ya know it's weird and I can't explain it but this babysitting thing has helped me out so much. I mean really. I don't think that's worded right, maybe I mean the act of it. I guess.....the purpose. The new everyday things it has injected into my days, the challenge. To sit on my nice clean made-up bed after I've done all the house chores and the kids are finally quiet and playing for a couple of hours in the next room and forces me to think about things I need/want to change and how to accomplish that. I don't know why it forces me to do so I guess it just motivates me to do so. And it's not just because I have a new "job". I've had that "new job motivation" before and it's never impacted me in this way. Maybe because it's a job right up my alley? /shrugs That sounds so simple and dumb to me but....Yeah, I'll just stop talking about this because I'm making no sense to myself in type! I tried. The point is good things lately, good things!

My peace of mind has just been so dandy lately. I've been really happy and haven't even realized it. I mean I've realized it but I guess it's just been a gradual thing. I can't remember the last time I was depressed and used-to-be that happened very often. I mean it hasn't been a 24/7 thing of course, but wow at the difference in me lately. Something has changed but I can't put my finger on it. Hm.

Friday Tony, Priscilla and I are supposed to be going to see The Happening. I'm excited about that because I am a HUGE M.Night fan! No matter what people have been saying about the movie, nothing would prevent me from going to see it.

Well, I really must get to washing clothes-...... nah, you know what, I'll save that for when I need a break from the kids tomorrow. I'm going back to Bones, which I DON'T get to do while the kids are here!