At The Moment

Well I surely didn't get enough sleep last night but I woke up all sick this morning so I'm up. I think I'll take a nap on the couch in a minute.

I'm really sad and nervous about moving. I cried all day yesterday because it finally hit me now that I am home from vacation. I'm terribly excited too, it just killed me to tell the few people left that didn't know and it kills me to think about leaving the friends I have here. Some people's reactions killed me too. I mean why would you ever not be supportive? When half of my friends moved away, even my best friend - my brother - I died inside, but I never showed it until maybe later when you can have those miss you moments. But I never told them not to move. Because I knew it was the best thing for them to do. And I maybe even secretly wished I had the guts to do the same thing. Well now I do. Oh well I just keep telling myself that they do it because they will miss me so much, and that if they are a good enough friend, they will remain friends with you no matter where you move. It will just be really hard if that turns out to not be true with some people. (disclaimer: I am not talking about anyone of you!) I am extremely grateful to everyone who reacted in a positive way. I really needed it and it has helped me out a lot.

It got me into some trouble letting Tony post it when I was gone on vacation, but he called me and was so freakin' excited to do it I had to let him. I think what makes me happiest is how excited Tony is about all of this. He really needs this. We both do, but it's just great to see him get so excited about it.

Tony, Shannon and I are finally going to get to see Batman today, that makes me sooo happy. This is the movie I have been most excited to see for forever so I can't wait. I didn't get to see it opening night, but I was at the beach, and I'm sure I'll go see it 5 more times, so that will make up for it.

Speaking of, our beach vacation wasn't all it was cracked up to be. I mean we had some GREAT times. Lots and lots of memories and laughs and love. But wow, some of it was NOT fun. I have blocked most of that out though, trying not to let it ruin the experience! It could have been alot better!! The good thing is that now we know--for next time--it will be better!

I finished The Host before we left. It was really good, but it could have been ALOT shorter. I got so bored during the middle of the book I thought seriously about skipping some pages, and I probably did. I mean that is a huge book, and I really don't think it needs to be quite that big. Had a great ending though, which I was really scared about. It was so original too, I've never read anything like that. I don't know how they would do it, but it would make a fantastic movie. I started The Wedding Machine on vacation and so far I love it. I'm only 25 pages in! It just reminds me so much of my group of friends, it should be a fun.

Tonight Shannon and I are having dinner with Steph, which makes me happy. I don't know how I shall live day-to-day without my little Mexican living right down the road from me. :-(